those old school days..

The End Of August is among us and soon the school kids will back in their classrooms. Today I was watching the local news and Saw a few back to school segments, I will be the first to tell you that I was never a big fan of school once I got into middle school, Elementary school was the best because I suppose those were my fondest school memories. I can close my eyes and I remember what that first day of school felt like in any given year, that smell of new books and pencils, that fear of new things, unknown things, new kids, teachers, seating arrangements.... If you think about it, The whole thing can be very overwhelming. I was always shy as a kid and maybe that was my downfall, I always felt uncomfortable around new kids and teachers, I never felt like I fit in. I wish I could do it over and who knows how things would have turned out.. but unfortunately you can't change the past..

I still have tendencies to be shy or feel uncomfortable around people but I have gotten much better at it over the years.. I take time to warm up to people and after that they being to see who I really am.. I am working on it..

Right now I am feeling sort of lost and confused on what to do next since things haven't turned out how I would've liked, its hard to start from the beginning and be on your own in life.. I am trying to figure what to do next but all that I am going through right now is new to me.. its not anything that hasn't been done by anyone in the past but it's taking me some time to adjust and face what may lie ahead for me.. I know somehow it will work out but I know it won't be easy by any means.. I just have to be strong.. but my strength has been tested.. I am just wishing for the best..

I am happy to report I am finally getting my cell phone replaced after much problems and aggravation with it, I gave up and told the company I need a new phone, I have needed one for some time now, but wanted to be hard headed and try everything but get the phone replaced.. hopefully it will be ready tomorrow so that I can get some things done as well as get the new phone..

This weekend will be interesting as hurricane Irene is heading our way, right now I am in long island, but I thing new jersey will be hurt the worst, I hope that if it makes any impact that it's small because the last thing anyone wants is to deal with the severity of a hurricane, speaking of natural disasters an earthquake hit nyc, or an aftershock.. but it was pretty significant, I didn't feel it because I was on the subway at the time.. I found out about it because my friend told me as soon as We met up.. after that everywhere I went there was talk about the earthquake..

The future is blurry, I don't know what path I am going to choose I just know that it can't all be bad.. Just hoping for the best.. as always I will keep you guys posted.. thanks for reading..

XoXo

Carolyn.