December has arrived, The Final Month of 2010. This year has brought me Good moments as well as bad ones, All together I can't say that this year was entirely terrible, because as I look back I start to see with every bad moment, a good one came right along after. Many people came and left my life, As a child, I had a weird way of thinking, I saw life as a movie, except back then I didn't think of it in the depth I do now, You have your main characters whom you see throughout, even if they may disappear for a moments time, to always return, then you have your supporting roles, the people who just fill in background space, etc.. I saw a lot of that this year, the usual people who have been there all along, and the ones who were only meant to be there, to teach me something. I have no regrets, life never seems to go down the path one thinks it would..if life was just one long stream of predictability what fun would that be? sure we could all do with less problems, drama, issues, but they make you stronger.. no matter how unpleasant.
2011 Is a mere few weeks away, For some reason, a new year never really feels that new to me, It just feels like just another day, except I hope that things turn out well and I have many desires as to what I would like the year to turn out like.. For some reason, I have a feeling that some things that may seem surreal are going to happen to me, but in a good way, I think I have to get through these difficult moments because There is much better things up ahead.. I hope I can look back at this a few months from now and say that was I right.
The Holiday season is definitely among us and You can always feel it in New York City, the tree has been lit at Rockerfeller Center, The thanksgiving parade came and went, People are everywhere with hands full of shopping bags, decorations strung about city streets, windows, houses, it feels different then last year.. But I can't help but think of those who are unable to celebrate the holidays, I for one am uncertain of where I will be for the holidays, But once Again, I Know things will get better. I have been on both sides of the fence, Happy and full of joy during the holidays, or sad, and miserable.. Every year as a kid I had a tree loaded with presents, as an adult, I've dealt with the inability of being able to even put a tree up or shop for presents, spend it with people I cared about.. the latter of course is a terrible feeling.. but I got through it.. Always remember, not everyone has a happy holiday season and my heart goes out to those people.
I am going into the new year not knowing what to expect, but just hoping things turn out the way I would like them to, I hope everyone has a happy holiday season, May you all get what you most desire.. Above all I hope it finds you all with good health and happiness..
XoXo
Carolyn
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