sup peeps?

Wow.. my last blog post was about my ex.. and it was more then a month ago.. Gahhh I suck! anyways.. time flies when you're working.  I find myself wishing for more time, for it to not go so fast.. for so many things.. by the time I blink an eye a whole month has gone by... it sucks, especially knowing My seasonal employment will be over in a few months.. but some perks come with that.. And by then hopefully I'll have time to do things I've been neglecting.. Honestly, I just want to finish school and find a job that I love.. but before that I need some time off.. It's come to the point where my health has suffered..

I Got bitten by bugs and I had an allergic reaction, I almost suffered heat stroke, my asthma was acting up.. I was all kinds of messed up. the summer heat has been intense in new york, with the temps reaching the 3 digits and myself working outdoors.. it is not any easy thing to bear.. I always say I could do this better if it was winter.. but you do what you have to in order to survive in this city.

I still Havent gotten a new computer.. I am aiming for a laptop.. I have to get it before I finish my seasonal work at least.. its beyond important.. I need to be online to do so much.. things I can't do right now with the piece of junk I am typing on.


In between work and school I find myself downloading songs that make me happy, no matter how old they are, songs that uplift my mood.. my mind has been heavy with many things.. living in new york isn't easy.. but I couldn't picture myself anywhere else.. so I have to resolve my issues.. I hate having alot of things on my mind.. being stressed.. it affects me.. then I end up doing what I have been... listening to music and gaming just to take my mind off things.. what did you think I would say? ;/

I have a list of things I want to do before summer ends.. so far off the top of my head I can think of a few..

-go to the beach, coney island perhaps

- go see a movie, perhaps charlie st cloud

- take pics in the city of random things.. My cam phone works better then I thought.. although seeing em on my phone is deceiving ..I learned how to upload em via twitpic on my phone so it saves me the hassle of having to turn on my fossil aka computer ;)

-hang out with some of my friends..

- go bowling.. <-- cant go to this alone.. might suck bad lol..

- go to a show

-have more then one blog entry for july

-purchase a digital camera even though I don't want to walk around the city with it.. too touristy.. lol

And the rest will come to me later on I'm sure..

Hopefully doing those wont be too bad.. one day at a time I suppose.. thats all for now.. I shall update soon..
xoxo
Carolyn