Old habits Die hard, the saying couldn't be more true.

Hello friends.. well, if my facebook is any indication of what happened with William and I, My status now reads as single.

I think this was just a case of meeting someone you've wanted to be with your whole life, yet Meeting them at a time in life where you can't fully be there for them like they'd want. we didn't date very long.. but the moments we share will always be in my mind and heart. I hope someday when I am in a better place, in all aspects of my life that we can continue things where they left off, but if that never happens then it wasn't meant to be.

At this point in my life, I just want to focus on myself, where I am going... And if this week has been any indication,  I think I am going places with my life, at least I hope so, I am back in school, the parks is paying me to go, they will also pay for my driving lessons when I am ready to start them, but one thing at a time. I should be in school two days out of the week which will lighten up the feeling of being tired all the time.. I shouldnt have agreed to be with someone if I wasn't ready.. and thats my fault.. but I have learned from this..

Lately, I have had a lot on my mind, because there is a possibility of an event reoccuring in my life which I would very much like to prevent but there is only so much I can do.. with that I have done my part now it rests in someone else's hands, I wish I could clarify on the matter, but its not something I want to put on a public blog,.. I can openly talk about issues once they are over and done, writing about it before the issue is solved doesn't help much.. I just hope and pray that all goes well with this..

I'm excited about school yet I know I have a lot ahead of me.. I haven't been in school since 2007 so you can imagine how rusty I am.. I took some tests today and I butchered math, it comes back to me after some practice though..

I need to take time and go out alone for a change, just to reflect on the events that I have encountered the last few months.. when I will do that though I have no clue.. hopefully soon or I will regret the hell out of it.. as my best friend david would say, "You have no excuse woman!" lol, ah I love that dude.

Tomorrow I have to go to work..but at least I had two days of not being there, which should make the overwhelming feeling I had go away.. although it doesn't help that I am working on Sunday to make up some hours, but nonetheless it shouldnt be so bad.. I hope everyone is doing well, comments would be appreciated.. I can view them now!! woohooo!

XoXo
Carolyn