experiences..changes..

hey everyone...


These past few weeks, I can barely see who I used to be.. . A poem? not so much.. but a true statement indeed..


I'm still shy at times.. but to see how well I am able to just communicate with people without feeling so awkward is great.. I am so proud of myself.. I hope to continue on this path..I am glad they accept me for who I am no matter what.. thats an awesome feeling..

I found out two things recently about myself, one, that when I know how I feel about certain things, about certain people, I should always stick to what I feel and not try to make exceptions because I think I can make things work despite how my heart may mislead me..

Two, that no matter how much I may have changed others in my past will always try to find me just to see if I will go back to the way I was just for them... someone I knew reached out to me.. thinking things would be just as he left them, its funny how they really didn't know me as well as they thought..  I once thought they were my weakness but I overcame it..


Everyday I guess I learn something new about my self, good or bad I accept it, if its bad I change it.. if I can.
we all have flaws some easier to change then others..

I look forward to the coming months.. I hope by the end of the year that I at least am happy and well, with many stories to look back on.. positive ones of course.. I know they can't all be.. but heres to hoping..

Another week is starting.. I wonder how things will go.. work is good, the people I interact with are awesome.. some.  if I can work on the making time for some fun part.. all will be even better.

xoxo
Carolyn