Repeated mistakes.

If you could prevent something from happening to someone that wasn't life endangering would you do it?

I see someone making the same mistakes I did a few years ago, I don't know them personally but when I found out this person was making the same exact mistakes that I did, Its not like me stopping them would make a difference.. the person who they are dealing with will just find someone else to brainwash with their bullshit. Like I told a friend of mine you can't save them all, even if you try, in the end it isn't really worth it.. I have no idea why I am even thinking about it..

Last night and much of today I thought about the bronx.. I'm thinking its because when my moms friend was here she made a comment on how sad it is for my mom to live in brooklyn a year and not know where some places are located.. I think then I began to remember how I know the bronx like a map in my head, going there I would most likely never get lost.. Can't say I really miss it, I guess I have my days when I miss it it all boils down to the fact that I have too much time on my hands.. Somedays I Feel like everything will go my way, and other times I just think is it worth it anymore to try to move forward when I keep getting pushed back? its hard to say.

I heard on a morning show tuesday that between the year 2000 and now A whole lot of people have left new york city, I can't really blame them, I love new york its the place I was born, but with times changing its hard to picture what life will be like in a few years, rent right now is 1000 dollars and up in most place, even more then that if you can believe it.. the train fare has gone up.. everything is just bad.. I think to myself, How am I going to make it? I don't even know the answer to that question... I guess I will just have to see where things head next.. As you can tell I am not in the best of moods.. it just feels like one of those nights where I won't sleep much and the thoughts will keep running through my mind.. I hope not..

xoxo
Carolyn