family Issues

Hey,

Well here I am sitting at my computer enduring hearing my neighbor's horrible singing out the window, When I check my myspace page.. I had a message from my brother in law. This is the short version of my sister's sad existence, she basically has been going out with guys who do nothing for her, she refuses to help herself in any way, doesn't work, doesn't go to school, her husband is the same way... so of course they live in a shelter, they go to different ones every few months because when you are in the shelter system you can't sit on your ass and do nothing all day long, You have to go to welfare and do there job program.. None of this is Something that any normal person would want, but that is the lifestyle which she wants to live.. The message he sent Says they are getting kicked out of the current one that they are in.

The Response I get back is "It doesn't matter you aren't going to help." Let me just say I was speechless, How dare he tell me I am not going to help? Of course I'm not first of all I know what they were expecting and that was for me to tell them okay come stay with me in brooklyn, Are you kidding me? I am not going to sit here and let them stay with me.. for what? so they can sleep till noon or later and stay up all night watching tv free of charge? I put up with that when I was living in the bronx, I was forced to live with them, because it was my aunts apartment and I could do nothing about it.. both of them need to grow up and take responsibility for their own lives, myself and my mother can't help them.

I am not perfect either but at least I have made attempts at getting a job, myself being only 21 I have done a hell of a whole lot then they would ever dream of accomplishing in their lives..
This is why I am not much of a family person, I don't have much of one.. My father started lying saying that i'm not his kid once I was 21, but of course never to my face, Anyone else in my family is nowhere to be found, so its just me and my mother and I want to keep it that way..

My covenmates and my friends Are the only extended family that I need because at least I know they will always support me, They will always care, and try to help if I have some kind of issues, that is what family is truly suppose to be, people who care and love you.. I am blessed to know that at least I'll always have them..

Two quotes from Gossip Girl Sum it up best

" Sometimes it's hard to see the lines we've drawn until we've crossed them. That's when we rely on the ones we love to pull us back and give us something to hold onto. Then there are the clearly marked lines. The ones that if you dare cross, you may never find your way back"-Gossip Girl In The Grandfather pt 2.

"No matter how old we get we always need a place to call home because without the people you love most you cant help but feel all alone in the world." -Gossip Girl In Enough About Eve.

XoXo
Carolyn