Busy September.

Hello one and All, 10 days into September and I am in much better spirits as it seems drastic measures I thought had to be taken no longer have to be.. hopefully, for now..
yesterday I think a culmination of repressing my feelings in front of others, trying to remain strong through everything came to a screeching halt and I just had a complete emotional breakdown. I felt much better after, but I think I need to work on dealing with the stress and drama that is impacting my life right now.. its just really hard.. but I am trying. I am truly blessed to have such amazing friends.. I say it time and time again.. I honestly wouldn't be here without them.. at least not halfway sane. I find it funny that most my best friends I met on a complete fluke.. sometimes unplanned events lead to life changing moments..

I am on the path to bettering my life and trying to get back on my feet.. I feel like I need a reality show or something.. I guarantee I would get some pretty big ratings..
it's time to do things differently, I will admit in my life I have been a procrastinator on certain aspects but, no more of that.. I can't afford to slack off one more day once I get back to the city where I can start getting into doing various things for self improvement.. If I were to blow this chance I would never forgive myself.. no excuses.. as hard as all of this has been, its just what I needed to get my head out of the clouds.. I wouldn't say I was lazy, but I lacked motivation.. I keep telling people I am going to write a book in the future on my life.. I actually have a few projects in the works.. hopefully they pan out.. only time will tell..

I am not the only one fallen on hard times.. this is one of the most expensive cities to live in, most people are either barely scrapping by, or going without.. I have expressed my feelings in the past on how I feel about NYC, I love it.. I just hate what it does to people..especially those who will do anything to live here.. I do picture myself leaving here in the future.. maybe not long term.. but just to see what it would be like to live a normal life elsewhere, a life where I don't have to struggle to get by.. the whole country is affected by the "recession" but there has to be something better then having to fork over 1000+ dollars month to month to live in a cramped apartment..whatever happens, you all are on this journey with me in spirit and I can't wait to see how this all turns out..

Last night I hung out with my best friends in the city... we were suppose to go to a show.. but a weird series of events happened, and we just ended up people watching on a corner.. trust me.. it was freaking HILARIOUS! I almost wanted to film what happened but no way they would have let me get away with it.. my friends tend to be picky about being on camera.. meh so much for being a viral video hit haha.. I didn't get back home till about, 7 or 8 am.. Totally worth it.

Now, on to my September plans, There a crap load of shows I want to go to and not to mention the san gennaro festival which I tend to go with David to every year, this year its Sept 15th to the 25th, I can't wait! I don't look forward to the crowds.. but, I do know that I have mastered it pretty well, Maybe there will be some karaoke like last year.. that was flipping hilarious, I promise to have a crap load of pics and videos.. maybe I can sample some of that delicious food they have at the feast... I always have a great time every year.. and maybe I can get some more peeps to come with me and turn this into a partayy.. we'll see.. I also have a lot of indie shows to go to.. I love love love the music scene in NYC, so many cool people and bands.. I do plan on networking for my friend Davids Radio Station: hopefully I can make some new friends while doing so, because who doesn't like making friends? I may not be a very social person, but that's changing with time... I also have a crap load of personal things to do in September.. so here's to very productive month.. and I hope to have made a dent into my goals by the end of it..

XOXO
Carolyn