inspired..

Lately, I have been doing a lot of writing, but I've kept it to myself because somethings should remain personal..All my life writing has been my outlet, ever since I learned what poetry was as a child, I was inspired to create my own.. that opened the gateway to many stories, poems and things I have written.. including my blog entries... It makes me wonder if I will be a writer at some point in my life.. I know that's no easy task, whatever I choose to do if it has to do with writing it will take a lot of work.

My life up until this point, gives me enough material to write about that would keep people interested.. I sure have been through a lot, but I never let the bad things that happened consume me.. that's something many people can't say.. Most things I had issues with I have come to terms with in some way or another... No one ever truly forgets certain things that occur, but you can always put it to rest and let go.. the way I see it, Right now, I am dealing once again with an issue that occurred to me in the past.. But I know I am strong enough to get through this, I have people in my life that will support me emotionally As I go through these trying times, for that I am truly blessed. 

This past Sunday was Halloween, I went to the parade with one of my best friends David, We almost didn't make it because he is going through an issue with finding a new phone.. it lead to an interesting night to say the least.. I do hope he finds one soon.. I won't go into details, but Its been difficult for him.. At the parade, we saw quite a few interesting costumes.. including someone dressed as a sanitary pad... I Kid you not.. it was slightly disturbing.. 

David and I ended up in queens, so I took the train home from there, the ride was about 40 mins or so.. felt like it took forever.. On the train I realized, most of the night, My boyfriend had been on my mind.. I don't know what it is, but whenever I truly am in love with someone They tend to occupy my mind very often.. that's how I always got hurt, I would care more then the other person in past relationships but I know this isn't the case this time.. Far from it as I know he feels the same way I do.. I just can't wait to go see him! the moment keeps being acted out in my head.. Am I going insane?... nah.. I already am.. :) Maybe I should start doing the futterwhacken like the mad hatter in the Alice in wonderland movie..

Anyways.. I just want all this to be over, At least the main issues at hand.... So I can be happy and do the things I want to do without worries of the kind I have now at this point.. this is going to be the hardest part.. I can't imagine anything else more difficult to occur then what I am dealing with..  I usually have a good sense of what will happen next.. Its like a feeling internally, rather hard to describe.. perhaps like intuition? Whatever you may call it I know things will work out really soon..it may seem like a long road to true happiness.. But I always find my way..

XOXO

Carolyn