its a long way now

hello everyone... its been too long.. but I was so busy with work that I couldn't update.. now I Seem to have more time on my hands then I Would like.. things aren't going so well with me right and it feels like a few years ago, where I was stuck in a box that I couldn't get out of.. but if I stay here I may never see the light again.. I'll be consumed by the darkness... its so hard to keep telling myself things will be okay... I try my hardest to do the right thing and I never seem to be able to get the end result I Would like.. I am emotionally drained... and it seems I have no where to turn.. I have to find a way out of this because my life can not continue this way.. I barely have the energy or will to fight anything thats going on.. but I guess I have no choice.. I didn't ask to be put in this situation.. I wish I could find a way to end all the pain.. all the suffering.. its beginning to be too much..