The game of life..

What happens when you are born into this game of life without the sufficient cards to play the game?

You do your best to move foward despite the obstacles Put before you, against all odds you have to take the situations you are given and make the best of them, even if at the moment all you can think of is giving up.. I am no stranger to these feelings.


I refer to life as a game, because it pretty much is one, most every aspect of life requires planning, strategies, unexpected bumps in the road we never see coming, So many things that it may as well be a game, one that we all play to survive.

Today I went to my appointment for a job training program and from now on I will be gone every day minus the weekends on the hunt for a job, I have to go take a test so they know where I am education wise, I don't know what kind of training I want to do yet but I have been told I would make a good nurse, the only issue is blood freaks me out and I don't like making anyone feel pain.. regard less getting a needle in your arm hurts.. among other things nurses have to do..

This is the first step towards changing the current issues I do have, sometimes we all need to be in certain situations in order to truly see the bigger picture.. My eyes couldn't be more open.
Last year wasn't an easy one, nothing in this life is easy, But once I have a new job I can begin slowly making my life more livable..

On a personal note, I am always reminded in the littlest of ways how blessed I am with the people I have as friends.. All I could think of is what one of my best friends would tell me while I was at my appointment, he is always so encouraging, sometimes a bit harsh but no matter what he is always honest And I appreciate that.. it helped me get through the day knowing I will rise above all of this to be the best version of my self possible, I have room for improvement and I will do what I can to continue to change and learn things that can help me succeed at whatever it is I choose to do.

It will take some adjusting to getting up early again, being out for a whole day.. a lot will have to change. I will gladly do it if it means I will break the cycle of misfortunate events and drama I have had to deal with, also I have been really unhappy, Depressed to be honest.. Perhaps this is a sign of things to come for this year.. as I always say once you've reached your lowest point, the only way to go is up.


XoXo

Carolyn