why?

it seems like whenever something goes right, the rest go wrong, already this week has begun on a crappy note.. I honestly don't know how much of this I can take, I have been dealing with my life being utter crap for an eternity it seems, all I ask is for things to go well for a long period of time.. I can't go into detail, some of these things I wouldn't tell most people unless they already know it about me.. I just want things to work out but it seems its all falling apart again..

words can't describe how I feel, but if I had a way to make this all end, I would take it in an instant.