Jobs? Lol

I used to work in a daycare a year ago, I was a substitute teacher, but I wasn't anywhere near your normal sub. I worked with children from 2 to 5 years of age, But They had me coming in when I even suppose to, there was a lot of things that were done, I was being underpaid.. I eventually quit because as much As I loved what I was doing it wasn't worth it anymore, what I was earning wasn't near enough to get by in new york. I am filling out job applications and etc, But I didn't finish high school so I would have to go back to school which I am planning on doing. Right now that is difficult do, I am try to focus on where I will be living in the next year.. there's just a lot that I have to deal with. I want nothing more then to get up every morning and have somewhere to be, I am tired of just doing nothing. I was burned out when I quit my old job, working there near two years without a vacation and Barely any days off can take its toll, plus when I was getting paid I stayed over time, which was till 6 pm. I had days where I would work from 8 am to 6 in the evening with an hour break, this was my first official job besides the baby sitting I've done years prior.. I did learn alot I will say that.

At the moment, I feel frustrated and a bit moody, this morning I thought I had an appointment to fill out some paperwork at the local social security office, but it turns out they told me that I didn't need to fill out the papers there in the first place, Lovely Huh? I woke up early for nothing. I guess it's not so bad because I do have to adjust to waking up early again. My sleeping patterns have been very off lately, I get it back to normal.. then I find myself in bed at 11 at night wide eyed unable to sleep. I don't think I have a sleeping problem, I just happen to think too much at night and I have trouble shutting off the thoughts. I used to seek solace in spending time with a close friend of mine, it was the only time I could feel like whatever was bothering me no longer existed just for that moment, But he has work to accomplish, and we are a bit apart in distance so it makes it difficult to hang out like we used to.. I really miss him. I was suppose to hang out with one of my other friends today who is practically 20 minutes or less by train, But with him, I love him to death don't get me wrong, But I suppose the connection varies with each of my friends.. I feel like being alone today.
xoxo
Carolyn